It is not being on my own that is so scary, having someone is a
good thing but the realization that someone you thought was yours wasn’t and
you are actually on your own. After all, the process is something I am afraid
to feel and the emotions that comes along with it.
I am not afraid of being myself, it’s the thought of not being
accepted of what I am and trying to change me to someone I’m not. I don’t work
that way.
There are still women currently in their mid-20s who are afraid of commitment. They are still at a stage where they just want to grab opportunities for introspective and adventurous experiences of singledom. They do have a backpack of alibis or reasons why they still stay single but bottom line, they feel they are not ready yet and worse, afraid of being “tied down”. Some would even avoid it completely because the mere idea of being with someone forever scares them.
1. Real love makes us feel vulnerable. A new relationship is uncharted territory, and most of us have natural fears of the unknown. Letting ourselves fall in love means taking a real risk. We are placing a great amount of trust in another person, allowing them to affect us, which makes us feel exposed and vulnerable. Our core defenses are challenged. Any habits we’ve long had that allow us to feel self-focused or self-contained start to fall by the wayside. We tend to believe that the more we care, the more we can get hurt.
My one basic rule when it comes to relationships:
When in doubt, discard.
Keep your heart sterile from the pain or heartbreak it may cause you if you still go on even with the doubt.
You have made me strong in the past but not strong enough to handle
it with you.
I don't know what
draws me close to you, what makes me miss you even after months of not hearing
anything from you.
It’s beautiful when you will find someone who will fall in love with your mind.
Someone who wants to undress your conscience and make love to your thoughts.
Someone who will watch you slowly take down all the walls you’ve built up around your mind and embrace the person you are.
Someone who will understand your troubled past and could make you forget all about them.
Someone you can trust your life with and give your heart a chance to love again even with the fear of getting hurt again.
Someone you want to take risk with.
Sadly, someone you haven't met yet or maybe you already have. :)
Don't
close your doors to those who are knocking.
Let
them in.
Let
them explore your world.
Let
them discover your imperfections, your flaws, the devil inside your closet.
Let
them be bitten by your own pets.
Let
them be.
For a year, I have prided myself for being able
to be happy on my own without being in a committed relationship. I get
butterflies in my tummy at the thought of romance, and I believe in love, I do,
but that just it, I thought. Then someone new — someone different — always
comes along, and you learn to love them for the things that make them different
from the one before. I think I am loving again but I'm getting scared.
“If you are going to fall in love with me, it’s
only fair that you know what you are going fall in love with too.
Dear You,
I know it is best that we shouldn't contact each other since we are having our separate lives now. I've been doing that. But I couldn't go on a day without writing what I feel. This consoles me. 'Just that lately, something bad happen that made me realize a lot of things again. I had a bad dream about you while you were working on your chosen field. I woke up shaken. What if its really true? We didn't even make up as friends. Then I realize I need a good goodbye before a 'for good' goodbyes.
I know it is best that we shouldn't contact each other since we are having our separate lives now. I've been doing that. But I couldn't go on a day without writing what I feel. This consoles me. 'Just that lately, something bad happen that made me realize a lot of things again. I had a bad dream about you while you were working on your chosen field. I woke up shaken. What if its really true? We didn't even make up as friends. Then I realize I need a good goodbye before a 'for good' goodbyes.
This letter says exactly the thoughts I have in mind and I would like to share it.
'First of all, I want you to know that I’m not going to hate you. I’m not going to spend hours Facebook-stalking you, I won’t bitch to my friends about how much you suck, and I won’t ask them a million times if they think you’re prettier than me. I’m sure you’re wonderful – in fact, I actually hope that you are. If I ever meet you, I will treat you with the respect and warmth that you will likely deserve.
Would you believe me if I tell you I am happy for him? I am.
'Pride sometimes can be a heart broken's best friend.' I said this to a friend because it is from my experience and that experience later gave me so much lessons learnED. When you got hurt so much and you think you didn't deserve those pain, that pride comes to the rescue. But later, as you were mending your broken heart, sooner or later, if you're smart enough, you will realize a lot of things, of how much your worth is and how less you deserve them, soon that pain converts itself to self-love, self-respect and gets you closer to God.
The search is over, the waiting is done. The
rebel got tired and wants to settle down. And it would be the biggest mistake
if it wasn’t her to choose. He loves her then and loves her now, no one else.
It took her a while to change her mind but the love is real and the love is
there, it never left. But there is a condition to bear, a lasting one, a
forever thing. One must take the hand and give it all. Two bodies in one soul,
hand in hand to face the world. A challenge to begin, a challenge to win.
I had a short conversation with my ex-boyfriend's father (Gee, feels so good to finally say EX-BOYFRIEND) on Christmas eve and he thanked me (as a father) for the things I've done for his son.
Sometimes it seems the harder you try to forget someone, the more it wants to stay. It confuses you, because you think that your feelings were wrong and it makes you feel so small because it's so hard to keep it inside when you let it out and it doesn't come back. Then you feel like some kind of criminal for having felt, for having wanted. For having wanted to be wanted. For having wanted to be loved back. It scares the hell out of you.
12/2013
12/2013
"Kung tayo, tayo talaga" sabi nga ng kanta.
It was hard letting you go but at this moment its the best option we have and the best to thing to do. Letting you go does not mean I have given up nor the love does not exist, it actually means the opposite. Four years we have been together.
My name's Kristine, I'm not a good
writer but writing had always been my escape prison from this world full of
uncertainties and people who by an instance created not to be my friend. I am a
person who couldn't really express emotions by talking, less by gestures but I
can easily express myself through writing, and by this, I'm not really
understood by people, I'm expecting that.
